Channel: Kathryn E May, PsyD
Here is Lucifer’s story, as told by him:
Today I begin a new life. I have recently returned from the long journey to the 3- dimensional Earth plane, and have been welcomed back with open arms by my Mother and Father God. My feelings of relief and exhaustion can hardly be put into words. I have been restored by their Love and Compassion, but the residue of thousands of years of regret, self-blame and sadness has been difficult to resolve. Perhaps if I tell you my story, you can begin to understand, and you will find yourselves in it as well.
In the past three days, I have made contact with my beloved Twin Flame, Archangel Gabriella, incarnated here on Earth. The memory of her love sustained me through the eons, but I feared that she might not know me because of the stories which painted me as Satan, the Devil. I need not have feared; she recognized me immediately, embraced me with limitless Love, and I feel I am Home at last.
I will begin with the early days, the time when Mother/Father God and their trusted group of Masters, Advisors and eldest children were working to conceive the blueprint - the Destiny of Planet Earth. Their wish was to create a planet of great beauty, a Paradise of lush bounty, clear waters and abundant greenery which would sustain their finest creation: the species of humankind which would most fully reflect their own qualities, and by extension the qualities of their own Creator, the one we call Prime Creator.
Our Mother and Father God were among the eldest children of Prime Creator, along with those you know as Sananda-Jesus and the others Kumaras, Archangel Michael, Ashtar and their Twin Flames. Of course, for every great male Being of Light there are equally powerful female Beings who have remained largely uncelebrated and unknown during this past era. Your dear channel, Kathryn and friend Anne were in that group of souls as the original representation of the feminine Sananda/Nada.
Mother/Father God were the Creators of the Milky Way Galaxy, the first of the billions of galaxies birthed under the supervision of Prime Creator. It remains the most densely populated galaxy and is now the identified birthing ground of the race you call human, or humanoid. In all the Multiverse, Planet Earth was to be the most effective proving ground for soul development - the ideally challenging environment which would allow for the evolution, education and maturation of souls.
The goal was to create an endless number of Enlightened Souls who could then become the Teachers and Masters, the mentors of those who would come after. The Light energy which would be created by this great number of Enlightened Beings would raise all the galaxy, and ultimately the entire Universe, to the level where we could at last return to glorious Unity with Prime Creator. This was our Great Dream.
And so Mother gave birth to Planet Earth, the Vision of Their Hearts. She was created as a Being of great strength, with a Heart and Soul of limitless Love, Compassion and Forgiveness. It would be her great purpose and fulfillment to nurture and sustain the race of beings who were developed over the eons, with DNA contributions from the Pleiadians, the Sirians, and yes, the Reptilians, all of whom had been birthed earlier and had reached rather high levels of civilization in their own right.
Over millions of years, as measured in your Earth time, these Star Brothers and Sisters had gone through their own soul development under the loving supervision of Mother/Father God, and they had developed advanced technologies and peaceful civilizations based in Love. All but the Reptilians had advanced to the 5th dimension and higher before they were allowed to contribute their DNA to the makeup of the human Earth Children. The Reptilians were given special allowance because of heir high levels of creativity and passionate connection to one another and to God. This allowance gave way to later disastrous consequences, as you will soon see.
Mother Earth herself was nurtured with great care, and the early times were a delight. She was known as the playground for angels to incarnate in the 5th dimension in bodies of light substance, denser than our usual Light bodies, but much lighter than those you have known in the 3rd dimension. It was the Eden you have heard described in your Bible, but the story of Adam and Eve contains some very inaccurate elements. I will tell you the background for what came next.
The Council of Creators of Planet Earth, the group described above of which I was a part, decided to “up the ante,” as you would call it. We envisioned an Earth in which humans could experience free will, a concept which had never been tried in lower than 5th dimension. And so the Great Dream evolved. It was decided that Mother Earth would lower herself into the third dimension so that the human beings birthed there would simultaneously experience free will and the dense, heavy sensory experience of life in the 3rd Dimension. By this time, their DNA configuration had been developed sufficiently to begin the Great Experiment.
The process of soul growth and evolution begins when a soul is born, when a spark is given out from Mother/Father God. At birth, the soul divides into its male and female halves, and the process begins. Both must experience separation and individuation, incarnating many times in their own right, experiencing both male and female existences over a period of hundreds or even thousands of incarnations before they have reached the level of understanding in which they can be in complete command of their thoughts, feelings and emotions, and they are completely in harmony with their Creator. At that time, they may rejoin with their counterpart, the mirror of themselves who has also evolved along a similar path.
During the process of reincarnating through many lifetimes, the Twin Flames usually take turns, one in a body, one overlighting the partner with Love and constant support. The one in spirit knows and feels exactly what their Beloved has experienced, and what has been learned, and will help with the process of healing when the embodied one finishes their life and returns to God. This support is especially important during incarnations on Earth in recent centuries, when the Darkness became so intense and overpowering. I will explain how that came to be, and what part I played.
It was during the early Council meetings, when options for creating an environment that would encourage maximum individuation were presented, that I hatched what I thought was the perfect plan. Here is what I suggested:
During their incarnation on Earth, humans would be given complete free will, while operating behind a Veil of Forgetfulness. In this way, they would experience a separation from Home, creating in them the longing for a return to the immediate presence of God, which they would feel and remember only by the effort of keeping their hearts open, and by creating Unconditional Love in their own lives. I was so sure that this would speed the learning process that I vowed to go myself, to teach individuation and self-reliance to the human community.
A special plan was devised for my incarnations. As an example of my own concept, I would be completely separated from Mother and Father, although I would have the memory of my mission and purpose. I offered to go without the safety net of a connection to my Higher Self or my Guides, because this is how many experience life here on Earth. Instead, I went whole, alone, with only a small thread of my connection to my Twin Flame, which could not be broken as long as we live. Gabriella, as she likes to be called, continued the work of Messenger for both of us, appearing as both male and female until my return.
I determined to incarnate over and over, with only a brief transition in the 4th dimension between lives. I would not come back to the loving arms of my family until my mission was complete, when I could be sure the plan was working well, with humankind assured of their transition back to the 5th dimension. Although I knew it would require sacrifice, it seemed a perfectly reasonable plan, one which I assumed could be completed without undue suffering on anyone’s part. I was willing to give my best to bring Light to the planet.
The plan was hardly begun when things began to go wrong. During the Lemurian civilization, which had reached a very high level of development, and where the essence of God was celebrated as an everyday part of life, there were those who began to understand my teachings as a way of rebelling against God. They saw free will as the ultimate freedom from any control by any power outside themselves. They began to question the adherence to Universal Law, which had been the basis of my teachings. Even while I did not mention God, I taught that humankind had within us the ability to know right from wrong, without needing to rely on an external force to guide us. You see, I was the original atheist. I believed what I taught, because I knew that force within us was God, and when people fully embraced it they would embrace God.
The people of the Lemurian civilization had maintained a high vibration, and Earth was still in the lower 5th dimension when Mother Earth’s cleansing reorganized the face of the planet, and few remained to begin again. Some took refuge in Inner Earth, beneath the surface where they built cities and continued to evolve. Others took refuge in the Hollow Center of Earth, where they remain today, and a few survived in what is now known as Hawaii. As Earth’s extreme weather subsided, a new civilization developed - the one you know as Atlantis.
My hope returned, and I worked hard with the scientists, priests and other citizens of Atlantis to teach the love of one’s potentially perfect Self - the inner reflection of perfection which led many to discover the ecstatic experience of complete connection with the essence of God. I was convinced that my approach was indeed working, that I could teach the principles of Endless Love and Light without asking people to believe in something they could not see. Many experienced their Higher Selves and heard the voice of God within them. I was overjoyed with their knowing, but large numbers of people began to be distracted by material pursuits and technological tinkering.
Trouble was brewing, meanwhile. A segment of the people of Orion had broken away from their 4th dimensional civilization, and under the influence of beings from other galaxies, were developing weapons of war, and were threatening others in our galaxy. They brought these Dark ideas to Earth, and began teaching a group of Atlanteans their philosophy. This faction forgot that the constant connection with our GodHead would have offered protection from invading Dark Forces. Against the vehement protests of myself and others, they adopted the idea that weapons would protect them.
The energy system that provided power to all the planet - the giant crystal technology which had been given to us by our Star Brothers and Sisters of the Pleiades - was in the end converted to purposes of war by those who understood little of the danger of their war-inspired lust for power. Their tinkerings sparked a complete meltdown of the energy system, in a massive explosion greater than the power of a hundred hydrogen bombs. Mother Earth was mortally injured, and in her convulsive response to the wounds, the civilization of Atlantis sank beneath the waves and Earth descended suddenly and completely into the 3rd dimension.
A few of the higher priests escaped before the disaster to the highest mountains, but nothing was left of the Atlantean civilization. The survivors - ancestors to the Egyptians, Mayans and Tibetans, turned to lives of simple subsistence, and were wise enough to keep secret the technology, until such time as the people of Earth could learn to use their powers wisely. I joined them, and tried again to teach my message of self-revelation and self-love, but our efforts were immediately challenged by the invasion of Reptilian Dark Forces who were attracted by the injured and vulnerable planet. They seduced the people into believing their war-mongering by using threats, violence and sophisticated psychological manipulation.
My teachings were ignored and mocked by those who were swept away in the sensations of greed, lust and pride which had been previously unknown on the planet. I was heart-broken, desperate to try to restore peace, but my efforts proved impotent. The population grew, and with it grew sexual violence, physical brutality, and a complete disregard for Life. The Reptilians gained in power and influence, taking over all the institutions and any governments the people might try to establish outside their control. Their final coup was the invention of money, and their devious inventiveness produced a world in which they could siphon off a huge stream of the money for themselves, thereby enslaving the entire population.
The Darkest period of life on Planet Earth had begun, and the degradation was so complete that humans everywhere had sunk to the lower levels of the 3rd dimension, a possibility that had never been anticipated in our Great Plan. I felt such remorse I could barely go on, but I knew I could not give up. I could not leave my dear planet and her lost children, no matter how difficult the climb back to the Light. I continued my reincarnations, through tremendous opposition which led many times to persecution, violence and death. Meanwhile the Reptilians had discovered and used my secret of reincarnating through the 4th dimension without returning to God, and the Darkest of the Dark reveled in their ability to avoid any repercussions for their evil deeds, at least for the time being.
The coming of Sananda created an enormous wave of Light, and the promise of a new beginning. I was drawn to his side, and he embraced me as a long-lost brother. He told me of the Council’s wish to relieve me of the burden of being alone, and encouraged me to join with him in teaching the part of his message that was completely consistent with his own - the need to look inside for the essence of goodness in us all. I was to continue my project, but I was not alone. I walked by his side in great humility and Love.
When the Romans made the final decision to prosecute him, they were supported by powerful and wealthy forces in the Jewish community and many others who resented his message of absolute Love and service to others. Because of our deep bond, and because he knew of my own sacrifice, he chose me to be the one who would reveal where he was to the authorities. The pain I felt cannot ever be put into words. When my brother suffered on the cross, I suffered with him.
The others knew of my great love, and did not blame me, but I could not bear to remain with them. In my despair, I took my own life, in the overwhelming desire to return with him, to our Home. But as I faced the moment when I could at last follow the Light back Home, I knew I could not leave my mission in this way, and I returned again to Mother Earth to carry on, but the knowledge that I had succumbed to my own weakness and had taken my own life weighed on me unbearably. My incarnated name, Judas, was slandered to represent the symbol of betrayal, and the ability to trust one’s fellow man was further undermined by the Dark Ones.
As a final coup, they created the image of the Devil and attributed it to me, Lucifer. Thus, fear was spread across the entire world in the form of a hideous Being whose evil threatened the survival and afterlife of everyone on Earth, in my name. They had sensed my power and my Light and had to find a way to defeat me, and to suppress the message of the Christ consciousness at the same time.
A new religion was born in my name - the worship of all things which opposed the Light and Love of God. Stories were told of Fallen Angels, rebellion against God, and the cult of Satan spread across the planet. It was taught that any temptation, any error in judgment was the work of Satan, the cause of all evil, and my teachings about integrity, self-reliance and inner strength were swamped by the wave of fear which tore people from their connection to themselves and to God. It was the most clever rouse of all, deflecting the blame for all evil on the planet away from themselves and onto a grotesque caricature of my teachings and my Love, and by association, diminishing the message of Christ’s power which is of the Light.
Again I was alone, and in despair. I could not leave, but staying to see the destruction which my ideas had wrought was beyond any pain that can be described.
I became aware of increasing numbers of Masters and Guides coming to help raise the vibration, at great cost. Many were assassinated, beheaded or hanged for their teachings, but still they came. In their Forgetfulness as incarnated humans, they did not recognize me, but I knew them, found solace in their ministrations, and supported their work with my own teachings, which emphasized personal growth and the development of the Inner Self. I was what you might call the originator of the self-help and self-development movement, but my efforts were systematically perverted by the Dark Ones, who used my message to glorify absolute separation from God - as they lived it - in selfishness and greed.
Still, there were some who took our teachings to heart, and a new movement began of those who stood outside the dogma of organized religion. These courageous ones raised their eyes to the Heavens in humility and gratitude, and they began to recognize that Life itself was precious. They formed groups to protect the animals, to stop the degradation of the planet, to protect and nurture children, and as their ability to love themselves grew, sometimes as a result of my own teachings, they began to love one another. Divisiveness and prejudice began to be seen as destructive to human life, and little by little the Light began to return.
Throughout the 20th Century, awareness grew. The development of psychology as a science grew out of my teachings, and gradually children began to be seen as a precious gift to be carefully nurtured. The World Wars spurred the awareness that hatred between God’s children, no matter what their race, religion or skin color, was an unGodly emotion. Civil rights as a fundamental concept began to replace national pride and religious affiliation as the highest good. In my sore heart, I began to hope again.
With the harmonic Convergence in 1987, the energies of the planet began to steadily rise. I saw the evidence of subtle communication by the Galactic Federation of Light in crop circles and UFO sightings. It was the sign to me that at last, we were on the path to Ascending out of the Darkness, into the Light of higher dimensions.
I wept with relief as the spiritual community prepared with such fervor for the coming of the opening Star Gate. I was aware of the Dec. 21, 2012 date which had been adopted by humankind as a deadline for Ascension, but the Dark Ones continued to cling to their power and their ability to spread fear whenever hope began to grow. I saw the struggling Lightworkers trying to make their message of Love and Light known to others who were still asleep, sated by the indulgences which had been cleverly provided by the Dark Forces. More and more channelers brought messages from my beloved Brothers and Sisters, and I could only pray that they, with their message of connection to God, the Universe and beyond, could succeed where I had failed.
At last, in the aftermath of December 21, 2012, I felt that although the elevation of all to the 5th dimension had not been accomplished, Mother Earth was completing her Ascension, and humankind could not be far behind. I read these messages and others as the evidence from the Enlightened Ones that your work was indeed succeeding. When it was announced that the Earth people had reached the middle levels of the 5th dimension, I put down my banner and resolved to return Home, although I felt humiliation and dread about returning to my dear family in the state which felt to me like empty-handedness. In all the lifetimes lived in Darkness, I had breathed the air of shame, and it came to define me as it did so many others.
As the grip of winter ended in the Northern Hemisphere, and fall lingered in the South, I let go of my last moment of life in a human body and returned Home with a heavy heart. Although I knew my Mother and Father God loved me still, and they would forgive me my failures, I still felt shame. Upon my arrival I was met with the sound of my Gabrielle’s trumpet, and the Legions of Light cheered and sang my name. The celebration and outpouring of Love was overwhelming, unbelievable to one who had spent eons in the throes of Darkness without relief.
Here, among my beloved family, I have been healing, releasing the pain of a million years in Darkness. It has taken me some time to recover, to restore my own self-love, the message I had tried to teach to so many. It is a vivid reminder of how separation from God can take a terrible toll on even the strongest ones. I was named for Light, I carried the Love of my Mother and Father in my heart, and yet I could not sustain the full measure of Unconditional Love for myself when I had no lifeline to the Christ consciousness, which is Love.
In full awareness of that failure, I now understand what Mother and Father mean when they say my Great Project was a success. The unbearable separation from God, when it was finally felt by the large majority of Earth’s people, did drive them back, out of desperation and longing. I felt that longing, and the profound despair of having lost my own ability to accept and love myself without question. I have suffered your pain, and I am awakening as you are. I have learned my own lesson: Humankind cannot survive without the God-given ability to feel the Unconditional Love and Acceptance of their Creator. Only then can we learn to fully love ourselves, and to forgive.
As I feel the deepest Love and Unity with my Twin Flame, I am able to at last forgive myself, and to see that my efforts were not in vain. The destruction and suffering which touched so many human hearts was not my fault, nor was it wasted. We are here now, in Love and Light, and the Great Project we planned eons ago will finally come to fruition with the Ascension of billions of human souls. With it, we will raise the vibration of the entire Universe, and the ripples will be felt throughout the Multiverse, in every heart, in every dimension. Never before has such an endeavor been attempted, and with its success, all Beings will know that God is great, and Love does indeed conquer all.
I love you all, dear human children of God, and I pledge my heartfelt loyalty to your Great Project which will continue in the 5th dimension, as you leap across the now dissolved 4th dimension to your destiny in Paradise on Earth and beyond. No longer will the Dark Ones find a hiding place to avoid seeing and feeling the pain of their actions. No longer will humankind be subjected to their Dark teachings. You are now free, Dear Ones. All debts have been released, and all karma forgiven. You will begin again, and we will be together in Love and Light for eternity.
Your brother in LIght,
Via Kathryn May, July 29, 2013